Wednesday, April 7, 2010

The Birds and the Bees

Every female envisions her first time a million times over in her mind until eventually finding out that it does not occur like it does in the movies: soft, romantic dim lighting, mellow guitar and/or piano playing in the background, a beautiful boy with whom you’re madly in love with, and most importantly, it rarely occurs sober. What we don’t know however, is how males envision their first time... is it the same? Or do they picture the loss of their virginity as a hard-core pornography scene featuring Kim Kardasian and Ray J? The popping of ones cherry has become such a poignant moment in a woman’s life but enigmatic in a male’s. The taboo of taking a girl’s virginity is an achievement which is rewarded with high-fives and “pound-it’s.” But how is a girl rewarded when she takes a boy’s vcard? I too, was rewarded with high-fives, “pound-it’s” and filled with joy and pride on the night where I popped a boy’s cherry.

It was the 4th of July, a night filled with red, white, and blue festivities and mike’s hard lemonade. After a long day and an even longer night of drinking, a select group of us headed back to an unsupervised trailer. I had had my eye on a certain boy all night and I knew I had it in the bag when he had used the “yawn-move” and put his arm around me. Once the small get-together began to die down, I noticed that he had gotten up and surreptitiously whispered something into the house-owner’s ear. When he nodded his head and handed him his wallet, I knew exactly what was about to go down. He then smoothly motioned me over and I followed him into the bedroom. I had of course played this out in my head the entire night: once we got into the bedroom with him leading the way, I immediately shut the door and flicked off the lights. The street lights from outside gave the room a dim yellow lighting; just enough to make out the silhouette of his now nude body. I then boldly pushed him down on the bed and straddled him, feeling his erect member under me. As the intense make-out session began, I smoothly untied my 4th of July themed dress as well as my white lacey push-up bra. His jaw practically unhinged at the sight of my B cup breasts, which I would normally be self-conscious of but due to the amount of alcohol pulsing through my veins, I felt like Pamela Anderson. After a few short minutes of awkward foreplay I asked him if he had a condom and of course I already knew the answer to that. Nervously, he reached his slender boyish hands to the nightstand, grabbed the wallet and pulled out a turquoise Trojan condom. From his maneuvering of the condom, I could tell that he had done this many times before. I laid down on the bed; he followed and held himself on top of me, in the classic missionary style. And from the moment he entered me until the moment where he collapsed into me, I really did feel like I was in the Kim Kardasian/Ray J porno.

When the deed was done and we were both dressed, we walked out into a room full of surprised faces. He walked away to the bathroom and when I sat down I was congratulated with high fives, confused but going along with it, I reciprocated the action. Finally my questions were answered; one of the guys had pulled me aside and said “You just took his virginity...” An involuntary grin crept upon my face as I realized that I had just achieved a great, great thing. The best part was knowing that for the rest of his life when he thinks about his first time, my face will pop into his head. When he gives his children the birds and the bees schpiel, he will think of me.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

are you sure that was your first time?

Dick sucking. Ladies, you gotta learn to love it. It's essential.

I had known him for maybe a few weeks now. We had met before, yet I have no fucking memory of how or where. I do however remember the first time he "took me out". After a long evening of back and forth texting... maybe even a little "sex-ting", he arrived to my house. I told my parents he was taking me to Starbucks for a late night coffee. If only they knew what I really went to do, that would not have been okay. So my "date" drove him and myself to a vacant beach parking lot (since that was of course where you go when picking up a girl late night) and proceeded to awkwardly park the car in the middle of the lot while shyly exchanging puffery all the while. As our immediate make out session began to get steamy, I decided to bite the bullet and make a move.

I pulled back suddenly and told him that I had lied to him. Confused and somewhat taken aback by my statement, he politely asked "What..?". So I proceeded to explain that I had lied to him when I had IM-ed him the other night and said I had "given head before". (Don't you just love all the different words for dick sucking?) Still somewhat confused by my statement, yet definitely interested in the direction of things, he kindly let me explain how I had lied to him about having experience givin' brain and wanted to perform my first phallic activities on his now erect penis. He reluctantly shook his head for me to proceed.

Now of course I had somewhat prepared myself for this memorable event. Firstly, I asked my then "more experienced" friends for some tips, the basic do's and don'ts of dick sucking as well as did some online research. I had made sure I had a good idea of what to do before putting myself in this situation, but now was the moment of truth. Besides the tickling feeling that occurs when your face is all up in someone's bush, and his occasional outburst of head grabbing, it was quite the success. As my first blast of that warm creamy mixture slid down my throat, he proved to me I had a new found talent. I was engulfed in pride when he asked me doubtfully, "are you sure that was your first time?”

Shortly after the ordeal he drove me home. The night had been a success. I knew I could move forward from here.

Monday, April 5, 2010

From Pussy to Cougar

I like to think that I'm receiving a complement when I'm told, "you're going to be a future cougar", yet I'm never quite sure where that puts me now, in my pre-cougar stage of life. One may think it has something to do with how you look now, at a let's say "young" age with your long skinny legs, perky tits, and a flat tummy, but I really think it has to do with you on more of a psychological level. Not to say I don't happen to be blessed with those wonderful attributes, but I really think my Cougar-ness all started within my mind.

Call me crazy but yes, I am an aspiring cougar and I'm proud! Let's be real, who doesn't grow up wanting to be just as hot as they were in their so called "prime"? I know we all do. I however have decided to prepare myself for this "job" which means I will always be in my "prime". What gives you more joy than to say that? Now let me be realistic for a minute, I'm not a bimbo headed blonde only useful for her DSLs and inability to say "No", I have actually worked very hard at getting what I want, when I want it. Perhaps I'm a little demanding, but really I'm just witty, smart, and somewhat conniving. If only I could show you the schemes I think up in this head of mine, then my friends, you would truly understand why I'm so good at what I do.

For now however, I'm simply going to share the stories that have brought me to where I am today, and shape where I'm going tomorrow. I have had plenty of success and an even amount of failure, but one need not worry as long as the most important thing is remembered; To become a cougar, you must first start out as a mere pussy (cat).